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Another Shattered Dream

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Once again my torch goes out. Another star fades away.
Another knife is twisted. My heart feels familiar pain.
The spring in my step is lost. The sparkle in my eye has gone.
Another weight drags me down. Yet again it’s time to mourn.
To mourn a love that never was, just another might have been.
Another fantasy in my head. Another pathetic dream.
A dream that was so out of reach. One that could never have come true.
For I am just little me, too lowly for the likes of you.
Yet still this didn’t stop me from hoping that we could be.
That we could make a life together; one that was happy and care-free.
But all too soon it disappeared. My dream got ripped in two.
For when I looked at you today, the truth it just shone through.
The battle scar upon your neck that was apparently made in love.
The uninterested look I got that said I wasn’t enough.
The change in your demeanour; the blankness of your stare.
It was all enough to tell me that you just didn’t care.
And that was when I felt the pain; the blow to my head and heart.
And I realised I was dreaming a dream of a love that will never start.
And I saw that I was once again wasting my precious time,
By investing my life in someone who wasn’t willing to invest in mine.

You Fight

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When things get you down, should you give in?
Should you accept that you’re not going to win?
No! You stand up and stare life in the face
You show it who’s boss and fight for your place
Your place in this world, wherever that may be
A life you deserve in which you’re happy
A life free from sadness; a life free from woe
A life that fulfils you wherever you go
One that’ll be remembered by many to come
One that’ll be treasured by all those you love
So pick up that chin and stop feeling blue
Stand up, be strong and go fight for you.

Here I am

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So here I am, this is me
Sitting and waiting patiently
For what exactly? I’m not sure
Perhaps for someone to show me more
Or something big to come my way
To make my skies a little less grey
To make my life feel more worthwhile
To come along and make me smile
To believe in me and all my dreams
No matter how stupid they may seem
To show the way when life gets hard
To shine a light into the dark
The darkness that I seem to find
In every corner of my mind
The darkness that stops me in my tracks
That always has me looking back
That always scares me to the core
I don’t know what it’s looking for
And why it’s engulfing my mind so
Oh how I want to stop this ghost
The ghost that dances round my head
That fills my whole being with dread
That wakes me up in the night
That wraps me up and squeezes tight
That pushes me down and pulls me under
A pathetic life broken asunder
But until this darkness disappears
My eyes will always be full of tears
So I’ll sit and wait and pray and hope
That one day I’ll escape these ghosts
And that someone may come along
To sing to me a soft sweet song
That’ll drive away my demon days
And change all my destructive ways
And help me see through brand new eyes
That I can rid me of this guise
And I can live a life that’s free
From all this pain and misery
And I can be a brand new me
Who leads a life much less ugly
But to find the saviour that I seek
I must also look very deep
Deep within me, in my heart
Then I can make a brand new start
And I can hold my head up high
There’ll be no more tears left to cry
And I can make this darkness go
I’m the only one who can save me so.

I used to be strong

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Going out of my mind over someone I barely know
Never did I realise this is the way my life would go
I was always such a strong girl, in my heart and in my head
But nowadays I analyse every little word that’s said
I’m not sure when the tables turned; when I became so weak
Or when I decided that validation is what I needed to seek
But for some unknown reason, I’m a shadow of my former self
I’ve taken myself out the running, put myself upon a shelf
Yet nobody is going to respect me or believe a word I say
If I don’t stand up and be counted; if I don’t walk my own way
So I think the time has finally come to regain the strength I had
To start feeling proud of myself, to stop feeling so sad
To stop this endless battle, to believe in what I think
To put myself at number one; always trust my gut instinct
To not let anybody bring me down or make me feel so low
To point my body, head and heart in the way I want to go
And not let anybody hold me back or make me lose my mind
To finally have faith in me. That old strength I need to find.